well i have known this kid for awhile now and we became very very good friends but when he found out about my feelings [liking him as more then a friend] we drifted apart i guess..

and well ive always had these dreams about ppl that i like. i mean always and its rly painful for me b/c a lot of times my wish comes true in the dream and i wake up in tears b/c i figure out its a dream

but this guy his name is kevin i think i love b/c hes just an amazing person . i have had three dreams total about him

1) this happened a while ago mayb months ago.. the dream was i believe in school and we were all sitting around and i guess i left but my friends were still there.. i hadnt cum bak for awhile so kevin came ovr and starting freaking out and yelling trying to find out where i wus b/c he thought i wus hurt or in danger and thats about all i can remember

2) this happened back in the beginning of may/end of april and this is when we weren't rly speaking mainly b/c he got put into a different class then me when the semesters changed and i believe b/c he didnt feel comfortable talking to me anymore.. the dream took place in school but the school seemed different like the hallways were rearranged but the bell had just rung and it almost seemed like the end of school when evryone hurried to go home so there are all these ppl in the hallway and im walking and i see kevin a few feet ahead and i start walking faster and faster to catch up w/ him but when i get to him i purposely shove him out of the way and walk on and then go into the bathroom.. he follows me and stands outside the bathroom waiting.. while im in the bathroom im looking @ myself in the mirror and i keep asking myself 'why am i doing this? why did i just do that? i love him i have to go apologize' but when i go out to apologize he had left b/c i guess he got tired of waiting

3) this just happened last night so i thought i mite as well post all of this.. well it definitely was the last day of school and it was vry strange and kind of hard to remember but what i do remember was me leaving school to meet up w/ my sister at her car but we were in the woods and i wus holding these papers that my teacher gave to me.. it wus sort of like a math packet and i wus walking and i saw kevin w/ this other kid taylor [who i rly don't like hes not a vry nice person] and first of all kevin was wearing an I LOVE NY shirt which is vry weird b/c im from ny and he knos that and he kids around all the time u kno like 'you new yorkers are always like that' you kno just playing but he yelled STOP rly loud and i thought he was talking to me but he was rly talking to this guy jet-skiing in a pond which wus just plain weird so i kept walking and he was on the other side of the trees riding his bike @ just about the same speed w/ me and finally he left and i kept trying to savor my last moment seeing him and somehow i used like my mind to make it last and made it turn into like a video game sort of thing it was very strange but he eventually left.. so i wus standing on this trail in the woods when my friend caitlin comes over who knos about my feelings for kevin and says 'hold on! let me see the packet!' she helped me realize that the packet originally had not just math but literature hw in there too like private poems and such that our teachers made us write and i dont kno but somehow she said that kevin had it and it made sense in the dream but i cant remember! its rly had to remember this but it did make perfect sense and it meant that mayb he changed his mind and still wanted something w/ me but he had the papers and i wanted them back b/c i only had half my packet

and thats about it i dont kno what they mean but they r painful and i hope it wusn't too open that i shared them.. sry they r so long but i tried to write in detail. thanks