I have never had a problem with self-mutilation before but I had the weirdest dream the other night. It has made me nauseous and unable to eat since. Here it goes....
I thought that I was hungry and should eat. I then started to peel the skin off my left arm from my wrist to the middle of my forearm. I then started sto remove the skin from my fingers and I watched in fascination as I started to disarticulate each joint. I realized I was no longer doing this for food but kept going. I then kinda woke up while in the dream and started to freak out about what I was doing. I started asking myself what I would tell the ambulance when they would pick me up (after calling first, of course). I decided that a lawn mower accident was the best excuse and then as I picked up the phone, I woke up in real life.
I woke up and stared at my arm, completely freaked out. I have been nauseous since and had to turn down going to a barbecue the next day for fear of vomiting at the sight of meat. What the hell does all that mean?