i have a dream every now and then, including last night, of my idea of the perfect woman

i flatter her and win her over but my horny friends take her away from me and i chase them down and get her back but ive hurt her some how emotionally and shes crying because i made a stupid joke and she took it to mean she wasnt worth my time, i think back to how i messed up things with my last girlfriend( real life friend who i never dated but was head over heals for for a long time) by saying something out of embarassment and ended up losing her...she tells me i have the curse of words(dream girl does)


so i start telling her im so sorry and she says to say it louder and louder till everyone turns and looks at me (now were on a double decker bus for some reason)

then were in a car pulled over and i protect her from a street robbery

the dream ends with me back at my home scrambling to remember her name and look her up on facebook so i can call her and make sure shes ok and not still hurt and not with someone else but i cant remember her name for the life of me and im overcome with grief


so....any ideas? =(
right now im still feeling sick to my stomach and like i wanna cry but theres no tears



also im a 19 year old guy if it matters at all

It sounds like you are reliving your experience with your past girlfriend/friend and that you are worried about doing something wrong in a future relationship, and that you will say something stupid and lose someone who is very important to you.

The part where you save the woman from a street robbery is your unconscious' way of reminding you that you do have strengths and you have qualities that a woman would appreciate.