So some background info about me: I'm currently dating a wonderful guy for 2 years now; very happy in the relationship. Obviously we have our ups and downs, but this is the person that I see my future with...

I also dated someone years ago (approx 10 years) and because I was in my late teens, I didn't really take the relationship seriously, and cheated on him. We tried to remain friends, but after some time he cut me off from his life completely. After the relationship had ended, I have always felt that he was "the one" for me (whatever that means).. the one that understood me and accepted me for who I am. I still think about him from time to time, even though it has been about 10 years. But I have always been happy for him, never bitter about the situation.

Now the dream: in the last year or so, I've been having very similar dreams.. about this guy. In these dreams, we always meet somewhere, but as if we are already dating. And, because of my boyfriend, we can't be seen in public, so we have to hide the relationship. (Even though, in almost all of the dreams, someone finds out about us.) But regardless of what is going on, I always feel content with him, just purely happy. It almost feels right to be with him.

But I feel as if I'm cheating on my boyfriend... Because the dreams feel so real. So I really don't know what to make of them!
My only explanation is that this guy is may be my escape from reality...?!

Please help me understand what this means. Any thoughts?!?

Well, you shouldn't feel like you are cheating because it's only a dream and you can't control it.

It could be that you want to escape.

It could also be that you feel that something is missing in your life.

The part about you having to hide your relationship could have to do with you feeling that you have to hide something about yourself, or it could mean that you are hiding something from yourself.

It could also just be a part of your mind is aware that you have a boyfriend so is trying to make the story of the dream make more sense.

There could also be something going on in your relationship or in some other part of your life that could be helped by you thinking about something that happened when you were with your ex.

its a good feeling with being some one special