Two types of socializing dreams I have
I come from a traumatic upbringing with no real family dynamic. One thing that kept me sane in my childhood (I'm 25 now) are my friends. But they would eventually ditch/abandon me in middle school which was a very bad experience that I still suffer from (social anxiety, bpd, depression, a lot of garbage). When I sleep I tend to have weird dreams. They involve friends/people from the past that I'm hanging around with. From what I remember I feel like an "outcast" or even "angry" in my dreams. I think it's not until the end when I have these feelings. Another set of dreams I have is that I'm almost in a completely different dimension. I'm me, but hanging around different people I've never met. I feel like I'm completely at home in these scenerios that I've never been to. It's almost when I wake up I'd rather stay in this world. It feels so real. I can understand the previous dream but the latter doesn't really make sense. Any ideas?
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