Problem Dreams
I think I need some help here, I don't know if I can fix this one on my own. I keep having dreams about death. Me, my friends, people I know, people I've made up. The only constant is that I am never the killer. I'll give an example. I just woke up from a dream, fairly short because I was just taking a nap, where we were in the courtyard of the dorm, and their was a dead girl without a face, covered in blood, propped up against the wall. She was dead, but somehow I knew none of us had killed her. One of my friends was threatening me with a gun, and had this crazy zeal in his eyes. I don't know why he wanted to kill me, I can't remember what he was saying. A second friend convinced him not to kill me, not really as if my dying was a problem, but as if it really didn't seem like it would be fun. Then, a third friend asks my second friend to shoot him in the face. 3 asks 2 to shoot 3. And he is so happy. He whines when two says no, he's like c'mon! Just do it already! That is what I really found disturbing, the happy and casual nature of death. Friend two finally caves, and shoots him in the face and his face blows off like the pistol was a shotgun. I wake up feeling sick. I don't feel fear in these dreams, but I wake up feeling disgusted. I sometimes feel sick all day. What can I possibly do? Can I control what I dream about? I feel like I am losing my mind...
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