Reoccurring Dream About My Father's Death-Help!
Hey everyone, I'm new to the forums. I have found little info regarding this type of dream, so hopefully someone can help me out or shed some insight!
I have this dream about once a month, and it's pretty similar each time. First, let me give you some background:
I am 21 years old, and a little over 2 years ago my father died very unexpectedly.
I was 18 at the time (we were pretty close) and he stayed home from work one day. Around 1am, he couldn't sleep, and he said he felt "weird" so he went to the ER to get checked out. Around 2-3am, my mom called me and my brother to get the hospital. We figured he needed surgery or something. When we got to the hospital, my mom was crying and told us that he passed away. We were in shock. Apparently, as soon as they got him to the hospital, he collapsed, and they could not revive him. The next few days were hell, and I still miss him everyday. He was 55 years old when he died, and it was COMPLETELY unexpected.
Now, about my reoccurring dream:
Basically, I'm at home with my mom and brother (some details are hazy), and my dad walks in suddenly. We are all in shock that he is here and alive. He acts like nothing has happened, even though we have not seen him in 2 years. He just kinda comes in and sits down like he normally would have. We are all very happy to see him, and I have so many questions, like how is he alive, and where has he been? In my dream, I'm so overwhelmed to see him, yet kind of freaked out.
I've had this dream a few times, and even in last night's dream I remember telling my brother, "I have this dream all the time, I'm just hoping I wake up." Sure enough, I woke up soon.
Thoughts? Have I not fully accepted his death? I find it so confusing.
Thanks to anyone who can help.
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