So i had this dream last night and i really didn't get it and i woke up with a lot mixed emotions so i wondering if i can get some help on this.


We were in this old house, Bridgett (cousin) , Tabatha (sister), me, mommy, aunt crissy, and a hell of a lot of other people. Ww were having a party with food and fun and cake. The pizza they bought was very small and was a let down to people and I only ate one little piece because I couldn’t eat any of the junk that was laid out in front of me and I even told mommy that but she just said to be nice and try one thing. Then this psychotic girl comes like with a small lighter and threatens everyone against the wall. I was in front and I tried to the push the lighter away, there was a huge knife in the background and she was thinking about it. Then I thought about it and then I thought about the bigger lighter behind but she said she would burn everyone if anyone moved. I jumped up and grabbed the big knife. And stood in front of her and she grabbed bridgett. Bridgett pushed the lighter in her face and I stabbed her twice but then gave the knife to bridgett because I couldn’t finish the job and so she finished it for me. I thought about lighting her on fire but then thought to just leave her there, I really don’t know who it was but I have a pretty good idea it was the reject freak that I hate from my awake life.

Everyone was gone by the time I got to the cars and my car was a huge bus/ truck, like rv type car i guess. I was scared and thinking there was some killer in the backseat but I got in and started the car. The keys were already in the ignition and I started driving. I was in grandmom’s neighborhood/ somewhere else, I think Candace's neighborhood. I think was there before in another dream but I can’t be sure. I started driving really fast and a bit out of control down the long road. And I couldn’t really slow down and I wanted to get home so fast I was so scared and upset and didn’t know what to do. First it was a one lane road then a two lane road. I had a had time staying on my side then it turned into a strange 4 lane road where the roads taper off then start again at the point. My car somehow flipped up and landed on top of a tractor trailer truck that was delivering bread. Then the scene changed and I was walking down the road in the walk area and a lot of other people were too. I was holding a yoga ball but it keep getting smaller and smaller until it was dead and I threw it aside when I got to the woods. Daddy was with me then and it was some kind if jungle type hideout in the middle of the road. WE met people there and they were like hey to my dad and was like hey aren't you Joann's wife I mean husband and I was like hahaha yeah daddy is a girl and he said yes and then they gave him something, I don't know what and a small pizza and they kinda looked like familiar people but I can’t put names to faces.

I was then running through the snow in my socks following tabatha and candace. We were in candance’s neighborhood and they were shoveling out her friend’s driveway. I had to get not her house to put zip inside but zip was freeing, (zip is my cat and she is a cute fluff ball of love). This girl was behind me and wanted to hurt me and take zip and she said we had no time for this and had to get back to the party.

The house turned into Bridgett's old house and I was running up the stairs to get to zip and the girl was chasing me and I when I got to her I had to her away from the girl. My mom’s car was waiting in the parking lot but then the parking lot got covered in snow again. Then I woke up……….

The fact that you didn't like the food but ate it anyway could mean that you feel you do things to please other people, even though you don't want to do them.

I think the psychotic girl in your dream is a part of you that you aren't happpy or comfortable with, your shadow.

Since she attacks your family after you were dissatisfied with their food, she could represent the part of you that isn't afraid to speak up and complain about or question things.

The girl wanting to hurt your cat - who is calm and makes you feel relaxed- could mean that you are afraid that if you express yourself more and don't always do what everyone says your life will be less calm and you won't be able to relax so much.

The weather in a dream often has to do with your emotions - snow could mean that you are feeling "numb".

I get it but i have been thinking and maybe the not eating was part of my eating disorder problem because i know in real life i can't eat that kind of food or if i do in very small potions meaning the very small pizza.

I don't know if the girl represents the girl inside me that caused the eating disorder and wants to push everyone away or i don't know but i do want that part to die and get over this problem.

I know i was depressed then and i know i love my cat more than anything but i seem to make my health my life.

I know i do do things just to make others happy even though i don't want to do that and i know that's not good for me in the long run and i also think the crazy driving could mean that i'm having a hard time taking control of my life.