i dont know how or why, but i feel my stomach and i feel this big hard lump on it and as i see, i dont know how but i knew i was 2 months pregnant and i felt like a stranger to this child and i didnt know whos it was or how it got there. as i dont want to go to school with this lump or have my ignorant and strict dad see it, i begin to whack and hit my stomach.. thinking its not too late to have it die without getting an actual abortion... i try to run and not eat... i dont wnt this baby... its not mine. as i feel its weight, i cry because i realize that its the baby of the guythat ive been liking for more than a month and i assume he left me?

It sounds like that the baby represents a situation in your life that has been slowly developing and you are now first starting to notice it.

You are worried about what will happen next if this situation doesn't change.