2-28-07

Something was happening in the dream before this, but I only remember being haunted by a presence. I lay there still and try to scream but cant. The ghostly figure floats by my bedroom door and it reaches its hand out to me and I reach out my hand and the figure becomes a solid woman who is 8 or 9 months pregnant. I remark that I'm amazed that she is a solid form and I rub my hands over her pregnant belly. As I do, I realize that it's phony and she's wearing a pad to look like pregnancy.

Then I'm riding in the back of a pick-up truck and see an accident has occurred. A brown van has somehow run over a concrete barrier and now has a flat tire and the rim and body of the van are crinkled. I see a woman in the passenger's side laughing. I assume it's because it's better than crying. There is another vehicle parked on the side of the road, making it very difficult to get by because of the debris in the road. A woman is standing out side of the car and as we go by, I say "Watch it, bitch!" Then the truck is poking along and the woman is running up to the truck. She's catching up speed and I beg, "move faster" as I lurch my body forward trying to make the truck go faster. I assume she wants to attack me for the insult. That's all I remember of that scene. Then I'm brushing flies off my shirt when the my alarm goes off.

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What do you think about the pregnancy bit? That usually represents new beginnings, but this is a phoney pregnancy so maybe it represents a phoney beginning or false start? Or perhaps there's some other way of looking at it, like you want to make a new start but things get in your way?

I'm not sure. Last night I dreamed there was a newborn baby laying on a bed. The baby was so small you could hold it with one hand. I picked it up and there were people in the room and I said, "Look, isn't it cute?"

The baby was nude so I found a knit pair of baby pants to put on it and showed it off again. I held it like it was a doll and I wanted to play "house" and "dolly" with it like a little kid.

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I found this on a dream symbol interpretation site:

"To dream of an extremely small baby, symbolizes your helplessness and your fears of letting others become aware of your vulnerabilities and incompetence. You may be afraid to ask for help and as a result tend to take matters into your own hands."

I just started volunteering at the school in a writing center. I do worry about looking incompetent and making mistakes. I doesn't matter what I do, I usually worry about those things because I tend to lack confidence in myself.

So, I did start a new project in a way, but I'm at a lost to explain the phony pregnancy in the first dream. I'll have to think about that some more.

This cracked me up. This is from this site's dictionary about babies:

"However, if the baby’s appearance is odd, and if your interactions with it are bizarre or unusual, you need to consider your own well being (psychologically) and think about what personal experiences and psychological hang-ups have prevented you from growing."

How true.